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you can also find my other accounts here https://linktr.ee/tuxxedobunni

I wanna thank everyone who was kind to me while I was using this account 🤍

I'm moving on and I want to be celebrated for the growth!

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Haha surprise people, I'm back! Well not entirely back because I'm not technically drawing anymore but hey. Who knows? I'm trying to work on it and start a new career as an artist. I might create a new account for that. : ) I'll give you a heads up when I'm ready. I'm always grateful for all the love and support I received from dA.

So I'm back here shortly to post about something that has ended a long time ago and concerns some of your recent issues. I was going to do it right after the Karma post I made about a month ago when some tea was spilled with you know who, but I didn't simply because I got distracted and forgot.
So do you guys remember when this person "saikouko" appeared? And she tried to make some point about our dear friend BerrieBlosym? This is a stat I wrote at the time. Let's take a look.





I'll go ahead and answer some of the questions I'm expecting to get. : ))

Q. Why did you write this in the first place?
A. Because I wanted people to know? I was tired of people babying her when I clearly knew she hadn't changed and was unwilling to change.

Q. But why did you not post it then?
A. I was mainly scared of what I'll get in return. I expected people to be like, hey, you're stirring shit up, asking for drama, how can we trust you, etc. Because that's the response "saikouko" got after she called her out the first time. Also, I was dealing with suicidal depression at the time, and I couldn't concentrate on that shit any longer.

Q. And why did you decide to post it now?
A. Like the title of this Journal, mainly because I don't care. That's all. At this point, I think I don't have anything to do with dA or anything to lose in this place. I was fed up.

Q. Why did you leave dA?
A. I left dA because I was tired of seeing her in my feed all the time and people still acting like she didn't do all the things she did.

Q. Will you take apologies from her?
A. Because she still tried to split my friendships with other artists even after she apologized, I doubt I'll ever take an apology from her. I could accept from others but not her. And again, I don't care. I'll probably have her blocked.

Q. Will you ever come back?
A. Honestly, who knows? I don't. I'm not planning to come back any time soon at the moment. Maybe I'll see how it goes in the fandom and decide, but then, I don't care about the fandom either anymore, so lol



That's all, byesies! Feel free to have your feelings; they are probably valid!
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Karma is a bitch.
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:iconourogami: won the recent one but I'm willing to do another one, since 30K is near as well!

Untitled Drawing by zerostates

Yes I am. :> Anyone who hits 30k please take a screenshot and comment below!

ps. I am also thinking of an art trade so... comment or note me if you want!


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*this journal might trigger some of you.*

As much as I feel sorry about the last status I made, I am tired of my illness.
I am tired of having to be let down by myself every time my subconscious tries to seek for happiness. I am tired of thinking about all the bad things happened to me and asking myself if I deserved them. I am tired of feeling like a burden. I am tired of wearing wrist bands to cover scars. I hate being the weak one. I hate being consumed.
I lost my little brother two months ago. It was sudden and nobody saw it coming. I don't want to get into exhausting details but yes, I had used all my energy on mourning and I had nothing left inside me. I was tired. I was fucking exhausted. I wanted to end it as soon as possible. It was obviously a rushed, illogical decision and it was more of a snap in my brain which never happened to me before. I was scared of it and I still am. Luckily I had wonderful human beings around me who tried to reach out and they are still constantly trying to see me & talk to me to stop me from falling back to it.  
I am alive because of them and I am grateful. And I feel guilty for pulling out such a startling status and scaring everyone. I know I'm probably scaring some of you again by this joykilling journal. I wish there were other ways.

But most importantly, I am alive and I am trying to make myself feel okay. I wanted to tell everyone that.

CSS Journal Coded by FleX177

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